Â HAPPY FRIDAY!
I like being happy. I mean, who doesnâ€™t, right? And although I do consider myself a happy person for the most part, there are also going to be some days where on the happiness spectrum I fall more to the left than I do to the right. I used to think this was a bad thing, that I needed to do something quick to get back to the bright side. But there are a range of emotions out there for a reason. And just like rain every once in a while helps us to appreciate the sun, perhaps sadness, frustration, uncertainty â€“ whatever it is we may be feeling â€“ can also help us to appreciate the happy.
This week my mood somewhat mirrored the weather today ~ mostly sunny, mixed with small dark pockets of cloud. There were some moments when I felt fully energized, enthusiastic, excitedâ€¦ and others when I felt tired, a bit down, or lacking motivationâ€¦ And when I found myself wanting to press snooze one too many times, I immediately passed judgment on my state of being and behaviour; internally I labeled it as â€˜wrongâ€™, or â€˜badâ€™. And then I quickly found I was wanting to pull myself out of there! I mean, we can choose to be happy, right?!?
Well, perhaps there is some element of choice involved, but trying to force myself into a place where I was not, and not allowing myself to be okay with where I actually was, also meant I wasnâ€™t allowing for some self awareness. Why might I be feeling this way? What are the underlying triggers at play? Trying to get to somewhere new â€“ and fast â€“ is not really living and experiencing the present moment.
I used to think being happy was the goal. But perhaps it isnâ€™t. Perhaps it is to be present and true to where we are, whatever we may be feeling, and to be okay with it.
Some of my yoga students this week were commenting (and being hard on themselves!) about how they just couldnâ€™t get their balance on. I assured them that every time we come to our mats we are in a different place. It could depend on the thoughts running around rampant in our heads, the sleep we had the precious night, what weâ€™ve eaten or had to drinkâ€¦ everything affects everything. Some days we may have great balance, others maybe only on the right leg, or sometimes it may appear as though we have none at all! But wherever we are at â€“ on our mats or in our lives â€“ is where we need to be.
When we are fully present â€“ present to our feelings as well as to our surroundings â€“ we are open to experience life and to be affected by all that life can offer us. When I finally surrendered to my mood, perhaps with a little less spunk than I would have liked, I was also open and vulnerable enough for change. Sometimes I walk into my yoga classes wondering how many, if any, will show up. A tad fearful, perhaps with a tang of self-doubt. I felt that this week ~ until I had 12 show up to my Tuesday night class ~ and left feeling totally energized by what my students gave me. I walked in one way, but by allowing myself to be present and be affected, I left on a high.
Where you are right now â€“ with respect to your mood, geographical location, career, family, relationships, or balance in yoga â€“ trust you are there for a reason. Life moves pretty fast, and you may not be there for long. So you may as well enjoy wherever it is you are at in this moment.
If we try too hard to get somewhere weâ€™re not, how could we possibly be enjoying where we actually are? (Perhaps I should really take these words to heart every now and again!)
Have a FAB week, everyone!